Broadway Barbie:

Please don't have children yet. Love best friend.
Glad you and Eli are getting along so well these days :) Emilywhat'sherbucket is out of le picture I assume?

Dear Geek Girl: trying to not read in to it too much

So you know how Eli is addicted to Star wars? Well they released the original Star Wars action figures and of course Eli had to buy them. Well I was making fun of him saying with his luck one of his kids will find them and open it to play with them making them worthless. well he said he would let his kids play with them. then I asked what would happen if his kids were not Star Wars fans. and he responded saying Our kids will have to be star wars fans. well i kinda sat there for a minute not sure what to say and he said. you did realize that i said our kids right? then he said if we are going to have kids i'm going to have to admit that i like star wars more than i like star trek...........and since then he's made several comments like that.... about us being together.
EEEKK!!!! *Happy Dance*
okay okay i'm over it but i wanted to tell you

love ya,
Broadway Barbie

Dear Best Friend; trying not to overreact with concern

Um lots of the things on your list are good.

Being temple worthy and like Christ especially. But Kristal, that sounds like hell. You're pretending to be something you're not. It's impossible to be contradictions of yourself. I find it hard to believe there's a reality in which a fifties consumerist doll can exist with an intelligent woman. I encourage you to strive to be talented and to develop your mind and abilities. That's a groovy idea! But it sounds like you're almost willing to allow someone else control of your life. The only will you should be submitting to is that of your Father in Heaven. He's really the only one that matters; and if you do what He asks first He'll give you everything else that you want. Being brunette has nothing to do with anything and you look better as a blonde. Perfect nails and no make up? You may as well wear sweats with sparkly stillettos. You love sparkly things; you love your ostentatious, unique, and beautiful style. I don't want to lose you to an idea. It's good to think about what you want; so could you tell me what it is you want exactly? I see your plan of how to get what you want, but I'm lost as to what you're actually trying to get out of it. Be careful. You're a strong and beautiful woman. Nobody is perfect and we all have improvements to be made; turning into a Barbie is not one of them. From the honest parts of my heart, your last blog sounds like an ambition for Stepford. (And no, this has nothing to do with your obsession with Matthew Broderick.)

I want you to be happy. I'm glad you're thinking about what will make you happy. But you of all people should remember your theatre roots. What about "You Can't Take It With You"? Were you happy being stuffy Mrs. Kirby? Things of this world like nails don't make us happy. Learning more about ourselves and the people around us is what makes us happy. You deserve somebody who loves you. Just you. Not your idea of who you wanna be, just you. You are incredible; you'll continue to become more amazing as time passes and you improve and replace bad habits with good ones and learn new things and go through new experiences which change your mind about things. Don't make yourself for a man; make yourself for you. Be happy with you! If you're not happy, by all means change something. But damn it don't just be somebody's idea. You're more than idea. You're a daughter of God. You have immeasurable power for good and equal opportunity for evil. Choose good; I know you will, but I'm just reminding you. You are who matters to Him and to me.

You are my perfect best friend.

Have you been reading your scriptures?

I've decided there is no way on earth I am not getting A's this semester. I am going to work my butt off. I am smart enough; I am going to take better care of myself so I can show that on my tests.

Which reminds me, go buy a pomegranite they're in season and they have lots of antioxidants :]

I am moving in with Troy's ex girlfriend Suzy. Hahahahaha hopefully she doesn't remember me! This will be my new place . I will have my own bathroom and share an apartment with two other girls. It is cute :) I am excited.

Know what else I'm excited for? HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!

Are you coming down for Frightmares?

Check out my second costume:

I need a bright yellow or blue or red wig, [and a high def camera] but essentially the idea is 70's style comic book damsel. What do you think?

I also have a really awesome masquerade make up trick that I am dying to try out! I made new fake skin and I'm ready to zombie it up! :D Are you going to be down for Halloween stuff at all? Your birthday is coming up!

What do you want for a present? Let me know :)

This is the view from my new cabin: are you down to come play?

That is Bear Lake :) I have a lake!

Xoxoxoxoxox looooooooove you!

My New goal

Okay so here's that deal. 
I want to be Eli's type and i know that's dumb and such but i'm going to try anyways so here's what i'm going to do.
1. Go brunette
2. Stay temple worthy
3. Not care what people think
4. Be well rounded
5. Stay in shape
6. Have an educated opinion about everything
7. Keep up my appearance 
8. Learn to be more "house wifeish"
9. Be always pleasant
10. Treat Everyone with respect
11. Learn how to communicate better
12. Be Supportive
13. Learn to not nag
14. Sing and dance in the kitchen
15. Strong personality
16. Wears an apron with pride
17. Smart
18. Well cultured
19. Well educated
20. Confident and bright
21. Christian
22. Republican
23. Can Cook
24. Starts with emails ends with a book
25. Speech as polished as freshly done nails
26. Nails Always done
27. Little to no make up
28. Flawless Grammar
29. Words of intelligence and level of competence
30. Be able to Discuss current events
31. Make plans
32. Smile
33. Volunteers in neighborhood
34. works day and night
35.Paint, Sudoku, quilt
36. Be Calming, 
36. Be soothing38. Be Humble
39. Be Modest
40. Be Dedicated

Dear Geek Girl: Lets take some action Baby!

It's time for me to stop messing around and GET BACK TO WORK! Perfection doesn't happen over night and I've been wasting too many nights crying over boys, coming up with excuses, and just being lazy. Honestly it's gotta stop. I need to pull myself out of this funk and bring the kick ass Broadway Barbie back. I need to stop distracting myself. How else will I get on Broadway by the time I'm 25 if I keep doing things like this.
So here's my plan to get back to the Fabulous Life:

1. Get on to Broadway by the time I'm 25
2. Be your best friend FOREVER
3. Be a performing missionary in Nauvoo
4. Get My weight back up to 115lbs. (I dropped to 105. :( )  
5. Go to Vegas for a weekend just for the hell of it 
6. Get my grades up (No More slacking)
7. Be friends with Emily what's-her-bitch. (girls have got to stick together)
8. Get to Utah a bajillion times in October
9. Get my bachelors in Musical Theatre!!!
10. Get my temple recommend
11. Participate in a 5K
12. Learn how to snowboard ( I Lived in Utah for heavens sake)
13. Marry in the temple
14. Marry My Best Friend (not you best friend. different Best Friend) 
15. Have 2 maybe 4 kids
16. Have a boy first
17. Own a teacup puppy
18. Travel the world
19. Go on the fastest roller coaster
20. Be Honest
21. Be nice to (almost) everyone
22. Dress up Always
23. Read the Scriptures 
24. Get back into the habit of Praying
25. Go to All three hours of church
26. Be outgoing
27. Be an example
28. Bring in big hats
29. Run for a political office
30. Be the Best Person I know

I love you!!! You should join Google +. yes?

We can do it. We can be better. We will be amazing. Because we have each other.

Kisses
Broadway Barbie

The Actionary is Back

Fuck Jake.

And that's all there is to it :] He doesn't deserve me, I'm leaving him in the dust, this is the end of line, hast la vista baby, I wont be back, don't let the door hit ya in the ass on the way, this girl is long gone, I'm not your toy, erase me, I'm not a doll and this ain't a doll's house, don't tell me you love me, don't confess, do it alone, cry me a river, clarity, circle of life, the winner takes it all and I'M ON A BOAT BITCH!

Can you tell my ipod's on shuffle? Well it's time to make a Jake CD. 

I called him and we talked. He's gone into his bishop; I'm going into mine. He apologized which I appreciate. But I realized as I talked to him that I have so much more to offer than he has to offer me. I'm tired of selling myself short. I will be everything I dream of, and that girl is much too good to drag his ass along with me. [After this blog I'm gonna stop swearing]

"Do or do not. There is no try." - Master Yoda

I don't want to drag myself down anymore. In order to organize my thoughts, I intend on making several lists. I'll begin with the list of everything I'm setting my goals to become.

Tricia's Ideal Self:

1. Graduate with a Bachelors degree in Chemistry
2. Hold a current temple recommend
3. Participate in at least one Orchesis concert
4. Weigh 125 lbs.
5. Be accepted to a graduate Chemistry program in California
6. Hold a career where research is a possibility.
7. Become a spokeswoman for a Woman's Center or some type.
8. Become scuba dive certified
9. Learn to do a back flip on the trampoline
10. Become proficient in research methods
11. Go to Vegas for a weekend just for the hell of it
12. Learn to surf [at least the indoor kind]
13. Get good at snowboarding and own a board and boots.
14. Own a chick bullet bike 
15. Be an inspiration
16. Become personally acquainted with Jesus Christ
17. Read the whole Bible
18. Be consistent in attending an institute class.
19. Sing in front of a real audience again
20. Successfully pass Calculus 3
21. Love myself
22. Sport blonde hair for another Summer or two
23. Paint my living room with a red accent wall, own mahogany furniture, and keep white couches.
24. Own an American Eskimo dog.
25. Collect comic books that I buy at yard sales.
26. Throw a glass of water at my date and yell "You cad!"
27. Ride the tallest roller coaster in the world [or a really really really tall one]
28. Play on a rec volley ball team.
29. Have you as my best friend forever and always
30. Be your maid of honor at your wedding
31. Spoil the crap out of your children
32. Design a house for myself
33. Vote in local and federal elections
34. Be completely honest. 
35. Be fabulous in every way on this list and many more. 

I want you to know that I love you; you have been the best friend I've ever had. I'll never leave you. And I have faith that Christ will never leave me. I know that the atonement is real, and I know that I will be clean again. I will do my best to serve the Lord my God.
Much love,
your very best chemistry major

Dear Geek Girl: Oi Vey!

DO IT!

I'm serious here. If he wants to be with you (and dump his cousin) then he need to clean himself up. If not kick his sorry ass to the curb.

I'm sorry you've been feeling......down? That doesn't really cover it.... I know.... but yeah. That sucks. But now your mom knows and she's on your side. So don't get to mad at her for hating Jake.... I kinda hate him too. I'm just too far away to do anything about it. if i wasn't I'd sucker punch him in the junk and yell "YOU KNOW WHY!!!!"  lol

Anywho your boots are soooooo cute!!!!!! I just bought a dress and I will model it for you when I can. :) I think the outfit is adorable. An absolute success.

I don't have to go to the howl if you can't find tickets it's no big deal. I'll just find another time to hang out with you in a slutty costume. i don't know what i'm going to be yet... we will see. :)



I think I am over my infatuation with Eli..........or at least I hope I am.
So I told you the main reason, but here's how I found out....... So Eli and I were at rehearsal and i got cute character shoes and was putting it on when Eli said to me "I just got asked the same question three times." so naturally i asked what question? and he said""well they were asking who I was with. they said that they all guessed you. then Emily and now they just don't know."  so I was all cute and joking, and said "yeah what's the deal with that?" and he said "well I've reached me goal of becoming the departments man whore." so I asked if that was really his goal and he said "yeah. didn't I tell you that over the summer?" to which of course i said no... (I mean really! If I knew that in the beginning I wouldn't have allowed myself to fall for him.)

I've told my roommates to tap my shoulder whenever i talk about him... because i do tooooooooo much.
:( I MISS YOU!!!!!